वाह वाह [:P]

उनको देख के वो अंदाज़ से फरमाये
नज़रें संभालिये, गज़ब न हो जाये
आपके हुस्न से चाँद को पसीना आ जाये
आप हमें देखें तो दिल काफिर ना हो जाये

वो बोले :
निगाहें मिला सकें, ऐसे करम कहाँ
रस्मों के होते हैं सौ पर्दे यहाँ
आपके इश्क का दिल में बसाया था मकाँ
नज़रें चार हों तो ये आबाद हो जाये

the long and short of it...

the summer internship process is fast approaching.
i haven't had a haircut yet.

should i try the 'dare to pare??' attitude ?

or should i go the 'short is safe' way?

i don't love my hair that much - it will anyways be gone very soon. but the point is - i don't want to get a haircut just because of the interviews!!

i think i will weather slot one. if i don't get through, i'll make drastic changes to my approach to the concept of haircuts.

for the time being, it is - wait and watch.

walking tall

i was lost in a forest
the trees towered over me
and i felt so small and worthless...

but something felt wrong
this wasn't how it should be
i wasn't what i'm meant to be...

and then i realized
i had been crawling all along
happy in my worthlessness...

i stood up straight
and walked across the grassland
i was myself again...

mac os X leopard

the new apple os is out. i've never used an imac. don't know why i saw the guided tour. there are some 'new' features they talked about.

stacks: - this is a shortcut to a folder you create on your desktop. when you click on it, the contents fan out or appear as a grid, depending on the number of files in that folder.

cover flow:- this shows you a preview of the files as you browse through them. something like windows photo gallery with better visuals.

finder:- the search. not much to talk about here. except saving custom searches.

quick look:- lets you preview files (presentations, pdf files, movies etc) without actually opening them. works in conjunction with cover flow. just a fancy tool.

time machine:- backs up your computer every hour to an external hard disk. a good thing - except the fact that you'll have to buy an extra disk and i don't know how resource-intensive the communication with the hard disk is. btw, the visual effects for the time machine interface is fundoo.

spaces:- multiple desktops. navigation between them is easy.

mail:- has good templates. a quick note function. a data aggregator that identifies address fields to add them to the address book.

ichat:- good special effects for the background of the video chat. easy sharing of files. remote desktop thru the chat. they call it screen sharing.

except for the ichat thing, i didn't find anything expectional. but then, i haven't used any video chat software yet. as expected from a mac os, the visual effects are really good. the specs say a minimum of 512 MB RAM is needed. i don't know how they'll manage so much with so little. to do it at the speed the person in the tour was doing, i think you'd need at least 2 gb.

and no, the thought of switching from vista didn't cross my mind even once [:D]!!

i love xkcd !!

काँटों में उलझी मैं और मेरी परछाईं

दिन दिन साथ चलते चलते
कभी रोते, कभी साथ हँसते
मन कि कालिख तन पर पोतते
मैं उसकी परछाईं बन गया

काला अंतहीन सा अस्तित्त्व
उसकी रौशनी से बहुत दूर
घिसटता , राहों में पिसता
सिमटा, सूना सा मैं चलता

उजाले और अन्धकार का मेल कहॉ
अच्छे और बुरे का मेल कहॉ
परछाईं का तन से मेल कहॉ
मेरा उसका अब मेल कहॉ

कहॉ देखे थे मैंने सपने
चलूँगा हाथ थामे उसका कभी
अब यादें रौंदती हैं
पैरों तले हर वो मेरी ख़ुशी

काँटों में उलझकर, फँस कर
बिंध चुका है अब तो तन
जानता हूँ कांटे ही हैं बस
छुड़ा तो नही सकता उस से अपना मन

...

words are just letters
thrown together in patterns
a meaning thrust upon them
that never comes out

thoughts and ideas
and dreams and feelings
go beyond all dreams
a world unto themselves

how can i tell you
how much you mean to me
when all my love
is in all my dreams

if only you could see
the world i've dreamt
maybe you'd surprise me
and love me back

but then, it never will be
you have your dreams
and much that i may try
they'll never be mine

having your bacn and (not) eating it

Bacn, according to wikipedia, is the term given to electronic messages which have been subscribed to and are therefore not unsolicited but are often unread by the recipient for a long period of time, if at all. Bacn has been described as email you want but not right now.

see gmail's method of dealing with it here .

i do it all the time [:D]!! ** swells with pride **

my bacn consists of dictionary.com, blog comment and orkut notifications.

random

->we had a mock interview for our communications class and i was the chairman of the interview panel. messed it up in the beginning - forgot my designation [:P]!! but made it up afterwards. our effort was categorised as a 'marked difference' from the earlier efforts [:D]!! some people told me after the interview that it was great and i wondered - the process this time wasn't radically different from the earlier one. yet, just because the prof said that it was good, people also thought it good.

->i hate the process of application to companies. there are all those vague questions - like the most difficult challenge, moral conflict, statement of purpose and what not. doesn't it all boil down to an exercise in creative writing? what exactly does the company aim to test through this? and when the interviews come, there will be more. like the famous 'tell me something about yourself' question.

->my eating habits have become really weird these days. i'm eating all junk. missing meals. i don't remember the last time i ate three full meals in a day. i'm losing weight.

->it's been ages since i last watched a movie.

->i started a new blog. a private one. but i intend to post there only when things get out of hand.

->listened to songs of aaja nachle - ishq hua and o re piya are good. i liked show me your jalwa too though most ppl won't like it.

->i think i'm beginning to lose one more friend.

->there are people who come up to me and tell me - do you do nothing other than blogging? and i wonder - how do they know about my blog? this spread of information is really startling. i don't remember telling more than five or six people here about my blog. i don't like this surprise being sprung upon me. coz people generally do it with an expression that says - oh! i have all the inside scoop on you. i know how psycho you are!

-> which reminds me - i got a date for the feedback on the psychoanalysis session we did in the preparatory program some 3 months back. i'm now going to be officially branded a psycho coz i wrote really pathetic sounding stuff for that exercise - two poems, one was all bloody and one was all teary.

->i think i'm going to score really poor this term. i just have this feeling.

->i've taken a strong liking to rum balls.

->i've become more careless - dirty - messy - lazy - unorganized - stupid - inattentive than any naween i've never known.

->finis

novocaine...

Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine....

i lovvvve this song by Green Day.. have been listening to it nonstop today!!