death wish

my tears have gone cold
and i wonder
why i cried all night long
mornings seem clear
and a far cry
from the black fears
and my black tears
sitting in a huddle
my arms ache
from holding myself
too tight all night
and the pillow
stares back at me
a witness to
all my muffled cries
and unsaid words
i wake up
to another day
fearing the night