long-lost departure

in a dark corner
all by myself
cringing from
every ray of light
nursing bruises
too many to count
shivering in a pool
of my tears
i wonder how long
i've been so
and i remember
once upon a time
there were people
who i turned away
and this misery
is of my own making
and yet i wonder
why they couldn't
have stayed for me
despite me..
what have i become
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
....

[the last four lines are from hurt-johnny cash, one beautiful song..]