lonely at the top

he tried walking away
from everyone and everything
that was hurting him
but no matter how much he tried
and ran himself breathless
he still ran into
some of himself

and so he decided to fly
wings of desperation
fueling him on a journey
to the heavens and beyond
leaving all hurt grounded
searching for happiness
in a handful of stars

and then he sat there
looking down on the world
and everything he'd escaped from
head hung down in thought,
the acrophobia returned
the stars were hurting him now
burning him with a desire

he had wished to be alone
all he now felt was loneliness
all his life he wanted to be
the superman himself
now he longed for some eyes
to stare at him in irritation
as he cried his tears

he returned
to where he had started from
today he braves his way through
all that life throws at him
and everytime there is hurt
and he stumbles and falls
he holds onto one of himself

बात का बतंगड़

बोलती बातों की
बकर से बच के रहना
बातूनी शैतान हैं वो
बेकार की बेकारी दे जाएँगी
बस रह जाओगे तुम बरबस
बसा कर बयारों की बस्ती
बढ़-बढ़ के बकना बस फिर
बेसिरपैर की बातों से बौराना
बगैर बगलें झांके इसलिए
बंद करो ये बकर की बहस
बचकाना बचपना है ये बस
बतियाने से बदतर नहीं कोई बदमाशी

the lonely prince

painted walls around
a brick veil to hide
and then he wonders
why no one hears him
words are always weak
when thrown against walls
and it always ends in
the bricks smiling

appearances deceive

was watching the credits at the beginning of the movie ghatak:

special appearance
om puri

sensational appearance
mamta kulkarni

friendly appearance
amitabh bachchan

white and some light

उजले हाथों से
उजले बादलों की
उजली चकाचौंध छुपाते
उजली आँखों में
उजली परछाइयाँ उतर गयीं
उजाले में डूबे
उजले नीरस सपने
उजली रातों में
उजाले से जगाते हैं
उजले सागर में लिखी अब
उजालेपन की मौत है

bloody!!

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:P

वाह ताज :D

आसान होता होगा कहीं
शायद इस से मर जाना
किसी से इश्क करना
और कुछ ना कह पाना

half-baked ideas

सारे वादों को पूरा करना
अपने बस में नहीं होता
पर मन तो हर वादे को सोचे
काश वो पूरा होता
क्योंकि आधे छूटे वादे
दिल में घर कर जाते हैं
रोजाना की चीज़ों से जुड़
पल पल यादें बुलाते हैं
सोचा था मेरे सारे वादे
किसी दिन होंगे हमारे
याद आती है वो रात
जब कहा था देख कर तारे
आधा सा वादा कभी
आधे से ज़्यादा कभी
जी चाहे कर लूँ
इस तरह वफ़ा का

[me waiting for a weekend when jab we met doesn't come on the tv :P]

मेरा प्यारा तारा

रात के चुप सन्नाटे में
तारों का शोर होता है
ध्यान से अगर सुनो तो
तुम्हारा तारा कुछ कहता होता है
दिन में कितना भी रो लो
रात में हँसाना उसका फ़र्ज़ होता है

random notes

- i can't understand what urgent things people talk on the phone while driving their bikes.

- when you have to travel around in autos, then the arrival of change in your wallet becomes an event to celebrate.

- i pass two temples, a gurudwara and a mosque on my way to office. a church and it would have been mera bharat mahan.

- i don't know why people have to stare at someone dressed in formals munching a bada waala dairy milk.

- i prefer the spencer's layout over that of reliance fresh. because it has better signage.

- the indian postal dept hadn't let me down. till now.

- i think a lot of people will be elated/overjoyed/.../.. if i grow a paunch some day in the future.

- suddenly i want to read harry potter all over again. and the foundation series too.

- right now, i want some chocolate ice-cream.

- the reason why the new format retail stores exist is because you enter one to buy a shoe polish and end up buying a bottle of shampoo, a packet of lay's american cream and salted onion chips, a packet of haldiram's khatta meetha mixture and a dairy milk.

- two office facts: food is a great instrument of unity. and the toilet is a great leveller.

- buying gifts is not an easy task.

- the end