numb. really really numb. not feeling. not sensing. not paining. numb to the point of indifference. like a rock. no emotions. no hurt. the blood drains out. don't look. feel it inside. drop by drop. a rivulet down the arm. and the cheeks. and the throat. constricting, choking. funny feeling in the head. a light buzz. calm fear. cold fear. vague fear. crushing the neurons. blinding flashes across the eyes. bolts of memories. long-gone happiness. numbness seeping in. all-pervading ice. shivering fear.