rehab

journey 1

when people and places
are just nouns
and emotions and expectations
some heavy words
and you wish
for a switch to the mind
a door you could close
to the outside world
while you explored inside

and what do we have there?
stories hanging by the thread
some corpses running amok
some saplings you once planted
dreams you've never told anyone
petals and thorns strewn across
a tarmac oft traveled

and you meet all of you
the one that holds your hand
when it's all dark outside
the one that makes you cry
every time you smile
the one that hugs you
when you feel all alone
and the lone warrior
the source of all your strength

the journey within
doesn't begin or end
there are no answers
but those you already know
but if you trust
that lone warrior of yours
i can assure you
the journey will be a smile
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journey 2

i stood at the shores
watching the waves come in
all my castles lay broken
washed away, never to return
tears and pain
and a sense of nothingness
i can't explain
how it feels
to lose all your dreams
all at once

and then i realised
i couldn't just stand there
i had to move on
build new castles, maybe..
but the first few steps
i so gingerly took
just got me deeper
into the same water
and then it struck me
i needed to move out
to safer lands
before i could dream again

i didn't want to think
i didn't want to dream
but if i just stood there
the water would run me over
i started a journey
much against my wishes
a journey that would
take me away from the water
from the broken dreams
from all the pain
from that void inside
and all the thoughts

i know it isn't easy
it's going to take long
but i need the distance
if i'm to breathe again